"Losing my religion"

My room is a mess. The cat has found its way in here a few times over the last few days. I do not feel like picking up the things it has removed from the shelves. I have secluded myself to my room since the other night.

I have been reading, though. I regret the loss of Recluse. She was a good woman.

It is odd. "Joseph"... Sherlock... He has taken care of me when he is not busy. He is very busy at the moment, of course. He and my work are what I have now that Nerina is gone. I was assigned to the Baker squad after being deemed... unsuitable for solitary work without guidance after I lost Nerina and hunted the Runner who took her, like the animal he was. She was my "team" before. My older sister.

It is the past, though. Such holes are hard to fill, and despite my work, it is one that I miss. Being something more than a "tool" to a person. I am good at what I do, but if I can for a moment, fool myself into believing that they care for me. It is silly and childish, I know. "Joseph" says I have a right to be childish and irrational sometimes, though, and that I should not apologize for it.

I am currently rather... disillusioned when it comes to attraction to others due to certain things that have come to light recently. That was part of the discussion that "Joseph" and I had, though. That I should set my sights on someone younger, for one thing. I have taken it into consideration, as I expected nothing to come of the other attraction, even though I felt snubbed by the things that came to light.

I can get all the physical gratification I need. Easily. There are members of the Organization that are closer to my age to interact with on such levels. Not Ronin, of course. Ew.

I will heal, and I will be useful again.

(Onomatopoeic Cat Noise)

Pursuant to the aforementioned feline; no ill intentions are held towards the cat. This is a Domestic Feline, not an Irregular. We are not Knight Squad.

Observations follow:

[20:23:17] Cat has been removed from the second floor lavatory.

[20:47:03] The second floor lavatory is now available for use.

[21:16:29] Cat currently resides in the kitchen. Permanence of this arrangement is Questionable.

[05:27:52] Lost track of Cat. Cat refuses to remain Contained within the kitchen.

[05:38:23] Cat located behind bar. Cat re-located to kitchen.

[05:41:44] Investigated: unclear as to what method of egress the Cat is using. All kitchen doors were Secured.

[05:53:38] Lost track of Cat.

[06:35:20] Third Parties seem to have been releasing the Cat from the kitchen. 

[06:47:23] Believe Fiametta or Janitor responsible for release of Cat. 

[06:56:51] Suspicions lack concrete proof. Observed Cat Investigating stairwell.

[07:01:19] Cat has taken up residence near Nat's quarters. 

[07:04:33] Apprehension of Cat deemed Unwise. Cat remains unharmed.

[07:32:58] Lost track of Cat.

[12:03:19] Cat rediscovered within the interior of grand piano. Unknown as to how Cat came to be located inside of the grand piano. Lid was closed upon earlier inspection.

[12:11:26] Believe "Joseph" may be responsible for Cat being lodged inside of grand piano.

[12:32:46] Cat refuses to approach the third floor of the Cafe Loop. Do not blame him

[12:40:11] Observed cat learning to open doors.

[13:09:32] I have named the cat Hamish.

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(Cat on a Piano)

As "Joseph" has declined to submit a report, presented are Observations on his Status upon returning to the Cafe Loop. Further Observation has been deemed Unwise. It is unclear at the Present Time as to the Status of 66342-O. Draw what Conclusions you will from the Facts.

Observations begin.

Overall state of subject "Joseph": Bedraggled.

• Subject seemed to be covered in both blood and what may have been crude oil.
• Upon attempted inspection, Subject refused to explain the aforementioned crude oil and blood.
• Blood did not appear to belong to Subject.
• Subject was lacking one pant leg and roughly one-third of the lower portion of his shirt.
• Lower portion of the shirt appeared to have been removed in an incendiary fashion.
• Subject was carrying what appeared to be a length of bent steel rebar and a dead cat.
• On further inspection the cat was not, in fact, deceased.
• Said cat is currently occupying a lavatory on the second floor. 
• Suggest avoiding the lavatory on the second floor.
• A sign has been attached to the lavatory on the second floor, indicating the presence of the cat.
• Subject had no observable wounds (lacking Thorough Inspection)
• Subject seemed to display signs of Agitation upon arrival at the Cafe Loop.
• Subject refuses to mention any details of the Incident.
• Subject refuses to leave the third floor of the Cafe Loop.
• Suggest Avoiding the Third Floor of the Cafe Loop altogether.

End observations.

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Addendum: Thus far, the only words uttered by subject have been "Do not ask". When pressed with further inquiry, a rather large mug of coffee was observed to fly through the door, narrowly missing my head. Further inquiry was avoided for Reasons of Personal Safety.

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